2016 so far

…has already had quite a few ups and downs.

The Ups

My dad’s store moved to a new location and it is pretty amazing. Nicer and newer with better parking and facilities. It’s been a stressful time for him but I think things are finally settling down and falling into place.

Hubs had some big/positive things happen at his work that are in his/our favor. I’m sure it means more work and stress on his part but that comes with it.

Kiddo is happy and healthy and had a great Christmas and is doing well in school and dance. She has a lot of friends and loves her teacher. Pretty well-adjusted so far. I may pay for this in the teen years but so far so good.

I am officially a graduate student! Classes started last week and I’m pretty excited. This deserves it’s own post.

I’ve grown a lot closer to and have developed some great friendships with some amazing women at work. They have really been a wonderful support to me lately. It’s interesting because I’ve worked there for a couple of years now and have known these ladies the whole time but just in the past several months have really connected and started hanging out with them regularly.

I have been doing a ton of cross-stitching lately, for gifts and otherwise. I’ll have to post some photos. I find it very relaxing and just plain fun. My mom taught me how as a kid and it’s one of those hobbies I start and stop and eventually come back to.

The Downs

I am trying to find employment closer to home to eliminate the craptastic commute. I had a first and then second interview for a fantastic, exciting job and was really feeling good about it. I didn’t get it and I was crushed. That was/is a hard mental hit and I’m still struggling with it.

In that vein, depression is a real thing already this year. I’m dealing but it is a constant cloud that hangs over me.

I’ve already been to one funeral this year. My sweet sister-in-law’s father passed away.

I can’t seem to get in control of my weight. I’m trying and have friends who are in this with me and are a great help, but no one but me can do it. It can be so discouraging and I just want to sit in bed and eat cake. Yada yada. It’s such a weird thing. The whole body positive movement that seems to be popular these days is great. Loving the body you have now and all that jazz. I’m totally on board with OTHER people loving the body that they have…but not so much me; I don’t love the one I have and I’m not sure how to get there. You can say “I’m happy with my body, it’s beautiful, does all these great things, etc”…but to actually BELIEVE it. Not happening.

The plantar fasciitis is still bothering me. My own damn fault because I didn’t continue with PT like I was supposed to. I have a very self sabotaging mindset and this is a prime example. I do have an appointment for PT this week to start over however. Back on the horse and all that.

So there you have it!

Peas ‘n carrots,
Finn

my annual anti-new year’s resolutions post

The chief beauty about time is that you cannot waste it in advance. The next year, the next day, the next hour are lying ready for you, as perfect, as unspoiled, as if you had never wasted or misapplied a single moment in all your life. You can turn over a new leaf every hour if you chose.

– Arnold Bennett

This quote pretty much sums up why I don’t do the New Year’s Resolutions thing. I’ve been on that bandwagon before and its always a sure fire way to set myself up for failure, so my current attitude is above. If you wanna make changes or do something new, you’ll do it when you’re damn good and ready and not because the calendar says January 1.

That said, I thought it would be interesting to look back in my blog archives and post the links to prior musings about the new year. So I did. And my past cynical sarcastic self still cracks up my current cynical sarcastic self. Sue me.

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2012/12/31/this-is-not-a-cheesy-post-about-2013/

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2011/12/31/giving-2011-the-boot/BW2013

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2010/12/29/grumpy-mcgrumperson/

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2010/01/03/so-here-we-go/

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2009/12/30/10-things-on-a-wednesday/

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2009/01/01/looking-forward-and-back/

https://finnspace.wordpress.com/2006/12/31/the-obligatory-new-years-post/

2013 wasn’t so great in many ways and yet it was good in others. Yin and yang and all that jazz. Overall though, 2013 can take a hike through a poison ivy invested forest and be eaten by rabid grizzly bears.

Happy New Year y’all. May it be as great as you make it.

looking forward and back

I love quotes. And this one by Bill Vaughan made me laugh.

An optimist stays up to see the New Year in. A pessimist waits to make sure the old one leaves.

Is it a pessimistic quality to love cynicism like that? Ah well, I count it as part of my charm. And here’s another one, because I also love Jay Leno.

Now there are more overweight people in America than average-weight people. So overweight people are now average. Which means you’ve met your New Year’s resolution.

As usual, our New Year’s Eve was quite tame and uneventful. I didn’t even ring in the new year with Ryan Seacrest. I think I was in bed by 10. So sad. Some day I’m going to get myself all snazzied up in a sexy black dress and stilettos and go to a fancy party with hors d’oeuvres, party hats, confetti, champagne and midnight smooches.

I feel like I am obligated by some unknown force to write a post that will enlighten, reflect and inspire regarding the old and new year. But I’m really not sure I have anything all that worthy to say that would mean anything to anybody but me. But since this is my blog, well, its my place to contemplate on the screen for you to read if you wish.

2008 was a year of “growth” for me. And I mean that mentally and physically! I spent a little over half of 2008 pregnant for the first time. Late summer and fall were spent in new baby mode and I stumbled around the house bleary eyed, teary eyed and more insane than is my usual. I dealt with things I had never encountered before – the pain of breastfeeding, sleepless nights, postpartum depression, massive responsibility for a tiny person completely dependent on us for survival and love.  But I also experienced that sweet new baby smell (minus the poop), watching innocent sleep and seeing my daughter smile at me for the first time which of course turned me to a ball of mushy gushy goo. I finally hit my stride during the last couple of months of ’08 and am finally enjoying being a mom. Don’t get me wrong, I loved Sam from the start but I think the changes that come along with having a baby were a huge shock to my system and I struggled to make the necessary adjustments.

Regarding New Year’s resolutions…One of my favorite things is a fresh blank journal. Cracking the binding opens up untainted pages waiting for me to fill them with new doodles, brooding rants, bad poetry, and ruminations meant for my eyes only. (And I do not keep my journal in my sock drawer so don’t bother looking for it there). I guess its the same with a new year; the perfect opportunity for a mental fresh start although I think it wise to remember that every day, every moment, offers us an opportunity to make changes for the better. This year, I’m opting to keep my resolutions to myself. I will make them but I don’t plan on sharing them with anyone. That way, if I happen to fail, no one will know it but me. Smart right? I’m crafty like that. To be vague, I mostly want to be more true to myself, if that makes any sense. It does to me. I want to focus on some career adjustments, educational goals and some personal things I’d like to work through.

I look forward to this year and hope we all have a wonderful 2009. Thanks for reading my ramblings and enduring all the baby pictures. You all deserve a medal.

And because I am addicted to The Quotations Page, here’s one for the road…

Each new day is a blank page in the diary of your life. The secret of success is in turning that diary into the best story you possibly can.  – Douglas Pagels 

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