terrific tuesday post

I really struggle with my post titles. Can you tell? Heh.

I woke up in a rather irritated mood this morning but am quickly turning my ‘tude around because various good things have already happened and it’s not even 10am yet. Wanna hear ‘em?

1. Sam was in a semi-decent mood this morning even though she has a cold and is producing more snot than, well, than I don’t know what, but it is a LOT of snot. She didn’t cry or whine when I dropped her off at “school” this morning as she has been doing some of lately. Oh, and there is this adorable little boy who has been greeting me at the classroom door the last few days. He just smiles so big and waves like I’m the grandest thing ever. It must be the hair.

2. My co-worker and partner in crime brought me a yummy greasy fast food breakfast that I will inhale now and regret later. I love fast food y’all. Cringe if you must but I love every poisonous chemical, every trans fat particle, and every artificial ingredient in it. So there.

3. A particular something that I can’t really mention on here as it pertains to The Man. But I had to include it in the list. I mean, it’s not THAT great of a thing but will do me for today.

4. I have Pandora on my computer and it is rockin’ some great tunes. And the best part is that when I get bored with one station I can change to a different genre and get to be surprised with each song selection, and ditch it if I don’t like it. I’m thinking there is a life metaphor in there somewhere.

5. This.

shocker

I know this will come as a big surprise to most of you, but sometimes I am the biggest goofball/dork ever.

The End.

wrong side of the bed

I went to bed early last night. Go me. I really should do this more often as I woke up a bit more rested than normal. Funny how that works. But then I woke up in somewhat of a pissy mood this morning. Maybe its the constant rain, maybe it was a frustrating conversation I had last night, or maybe it’s just me being a girl.

Whatever the reason, I am happy that it’s Friday and honestly, my only goal today is to make it till 5:00. Sad I know. I realize that I bemoan my acute boredom to the point of excess. But really, some days are not as bad as others. My thing is that I always want/need something to look forward to to get through the day. Even if it’s something as simple as 5:00, or as exciting as my upcoming trip to NYC.

I’m always counting down to something. I want to learn to live in the moment but I really suck at that. When I look back over the past six years or so I cringe at all the time I’ve wasted always looking forward and not embracing the present. But how do you do that exactly? I suppose part if it is an attitude adjustment. Ok, most of it. And another part is to quit yer bitchin’ and DO something. Less talk, more do. Less writing about it, more getting out there and DOING it. Whatever IT is. That’s another problem…what is IT?

Maybe I complicate and overthink these life choice things. Alright, I’m positive that I do. Eh, this post is wandering into hazy territory. I’ll figure it out someday. In the meantime you can find my melancholy mug in the self-help section of your local bookstore.

what a face

spewing

Sam has a virus. Nothing to do but give Tylenol and wait it out. She is back at daycare for the moment. Still fussy but my mind is eased a bit. No ear infection either. I have “elevated” blood pressure. Instructed to see my PCP about that in conjunction with some meds I’m currently taking. I have never ever had any blood pressure issues in my life and it’s kind of wigging me out. Must take better care of myself sez I.

I stopped having Facebook automatically post blog stuff over there. I dunno why really. But if I want to I can always post a link over there. I also took Twitter off this blog. Again, I dunno why. Just ’cause. One day I tell you I’m gonna disappear off the face of the internets. You have been warned.

I need to go to the grocery store but don’t want to. I have a list though. Lists are good at the grocery if not always helpful. It’s my lame attempt not to buy junk. Stick to the list I say, stick to the list. But oh, I really need that box of Little Debbies don’t I? Food sucks.

My grandma fell again today. Luckily no broken bones, just bruising. Thanks to Sara for keeping me posted. Hugs girlie.

I go back to work tomorrow. No more talking about that.

Eh. On to the grocery. This is just a stalling tactic.

some of my favorites

this is why i’m so tired

Wow, this has been a super duper extra busy weekend!

We made a quick trip home yesterday to go to a family cookout. Mom was already there and Bro dropped by a bit later. It was great to see all the cousins and aunts we haven’t seen in ages and ages. Some of them hadn’t seen us since we got married and we all know how long ago that was! We dropped by the store on the way home and Sam got to see Papa and play with the “take a penny, leave a penny” pot.

Sam did pretty well considering that she still will not nap in the new car seat. I thought we were going to have to deal with baby meltdown but she was so distracted by all the new people and her new favorite cousin and new friend that she just kept on truckin’ and finally passed out on the way home, even with her head all wonky and my pathetic attempts to fashion a makeshift pillow for her out of a Tinkerbell blanket. 

Today was church and another family cookout. Again, the kiddo was such a trooper and did great in church, except when she threw her shoe clear across the aisle during the Lord’s Supper…but I’m sure God smiled at that just like everyone else did. Heh.

And now, it’s bedtime! Tomorrow is blissfully free of any plans but I’m thinking a trip to the park and playing on the swings might be in order.

Its DoodleFest ‘09!!!

or maybe just a staff meeting….

and so it goes

I wish I could say that today was all sunshine and unicorns but that would be lying. Which I never do of course. Not even embellish one tiny bit. So I will be honest and say that today has been an exercise in tedium and monotony. Go figure. But it’s ok. I’m paying my bills and that’s all that matters right? So they tell me. Whatever. I’m not here to talk about that. Actually I’m not here to talk about much of anything. I’m only here to kill the last 17 minutes before I get in my happy lil’ Element and drive away. Woot woot.

I was annoyed today because I tried to use the beta version (I have no idea what that means but it sounds really cool doesn’t it?) of the WordPress app for Blackberry. I was sitting in a cold and sterile conference room waiting for a meeting to start and I thought to myself (why does that expression bother me? “thought to myself”…who else do you think to? I mean, you never say, I thought to Uncle Bob or my cat Ringo right? But I digress.)…I thought to myself, I’ll see if I can blog from here and I’ll just look like all the other suits answering an important email about budgets or quality improvements or some such. So I wrote a snarky post and clicked “submit”…sigh…it didn’t work. For whatever reason the fancy smancy beta smeta WordPress app didn’t work. So instead I played Brickbreaker and from a suitable distance I still looked like I was answering an important email so it was all good. It would be cool to be able to live blog meetings though wouldn’t it? I mean, I could really spice things up in the board room and entertain myself quite nicely that way.

And oh snap…lookie, now I only have to kill 7 minutes. Which just happens to be the exact amount of time it takes me to gather up my crap, shut down Ol’ Bessie, use the facilities and scram out da doh’!

new specs

I’ve decided that all my peeps need to be in one place so I can just post something ONE time instead of all over the place. So, everybody please pick one social networking thang and that’ll be it, ok? Twitter, Facebook or this here blog…what’s it gonna be?

holding that thought

eek. behind on stuff. again. will post here soon i promise. all is well. just busy. mwah.

quotes i like today

Don’t worry about the world coming to an end today. It’s already tomorrow in Australia.

- Charles M. Schulz

Take care polar bear.
- some character on Sprout

Life loves to be taken by the lapel and told, ‘I’m with you kid. Let’s go.’

- Maya Angelou

We must believe in luck. For how else can we explain the success of those we don’t like?
- Jean Cocteau

the internet ate it

I had a post drafted and in a distracted moment, I deleted it. Argh. It wasn’t even a baby picture either. It was like, real words and stuff.

Can I just say that Direct TV is worthless in a storm? It goes out every dang time - just when Nancy whats-her-name is telling me whether or not I need to go to my “safe place”. Go figure.

Steve McNair. What?!?!?!? Seriously, sometimes I just don’t get it. Crazy stuff happening all over the place. It’s so sad, regardless of the circumstances. I am a HUGE Titans fan and he was my fav. I’m not good at doing tribute-type posts and I’m sure there will be plenty of those elsewhere. Suffice it to say that I was shocked and very sad. I’ve been following the coverage on tv since I first heard about it on Twitter.

Hubs has been in Atlanta for the past few days catching up with some college friends. He’s driving around in this mess right now trying to get home. I’d tell him to take cover except like I said, my tv is out. I think I might need to invest in one of those weather radio gadgets.

My dad and brother came up today for a bit. They loaded up a truck fulla rock (don’t ask, we have very desirable rocks here) and then took me to lunch. Yay dad! Thanks! Sam was a show off for her Papa and managed to contain her fit until after they’d left.

Sam is teething. Again. I would like to know whose bright idea it was to have baby teeth come in one or two at a time over the course of many months? Hey, thanks for that. Why can’t they all come in at the same time? Or better just, just be born with ‘em. I mean, really, they’re just gonna fall out anyway and new ones come in. Would save mommies and babies a lot of grief. Is there a suggestion box somewhere for these things?

Here’s something random…went downstairs to the garage today and a shelf had fallen off the wall, including all the stuff on it of course and a big ol’ computer monitor hit the side panel of my car door and I have a purty dent and scratch all down the side. Nice. The contents of the shelf are all over the place; my picture of Humphrey Bogart shattered so there’s glass in the floor, fake flowers, old trophies from high school, you know, all that random stuff you store in a garage.

Tomorrow I’m heading out for a 6:00 am run with my running buddies. I’ve been in a bit of a running slump and am hoping these crazy motivated chicks are gonna help to pull me out of it. I am so looking forward to kicking some asphalt butt tomorrow morning!

Hubs is home. Cooper is going crazy! G’night.

let’s see…

First the good stuff…Happy Father’s Day!!! We had a nice pre-Father’s Day cookout with family yesterday. Sam was a charmer and showed off her crawling belly-scooting skilz.

The 4th of July is near!!! I love that holiday. Because of the fireworks and food but also because it means a day off of work so that will be an extra super short week for me.

Sam thinks Cooper is the most hilarious thing she has ever seen. She sees him and just grins and babbles. Its the cutest thing. She also loves to feed him Cheerios or whatever she happens to be eating. I can hear her baby brain saying “one for doggie, two for me, one for doggie, two for me”. And I realize that this means she is consuming more dog spit than is probably healthy but I don’t stress over these things.

And the not so good stuff…I am sick. Again. Doc isn’t sure why I’m having all these sore throats. He tested me for strep, again, and for mono. Both negative. Another zpack will be consumed and my toothbrush replaced. I missed book club. Again. I’m the worst book club member in history methinks.

Happy Father’s Day!

checking in

One day I will write something of substance instead of these little updates on my boring life. But for now, that’s what you get. And besides, my mom likes them. Right mom? Right?

It’s hailed like crazy here tonight and funnel clouds seemed to be over the place.  A real “gulley washer”. All is well though. Sam slept through it all. What is the deal with this weather though? Or does it do this every year and we just forget?

I have a 7am presentation tomorrow. Ugh. Trying to prep clothes, lunches, etc ahead of time so I might manage to get there on time and semi-conscious.

Physical therapy went great today. My knees feel good and Mr. Trainer said after my appointment on Friday that I might drop down to once a week instead of twice. This is good news! Last night’s run was the best yet and I can tell that I’m getting stronger and my body isn’t resisting so much. Next 5k is planned for the 4th of July. I’ve been to the gym twice this week and plan on it tomorrow too.

Hubs and I will celebrate our 10 year anniversary next weekend! That makes me feel old. But good. I mean, 10 years??? What? We will be going on a little one night getaway thanks to my mom who is going to babysit for the evening. Is it bad that I’m REALLY looking forward to sleeping in?

Sam’s crib has been recalled and we are supposed to mail the brackets in, take a pic of the model stickers and wait for a voucher for a new crib. In the meantime, I don’t know what Sam is going to do as far as sleeping arrangements…what do you think? Put the mattress on the floor? Have her sleep in the pack ‘n play? I’m not looking forward to it as I’m afraid it will really mess up her sleep routine. And I’m not sure how long it will take to get the voucher. Anyway, I can see this turning into mass chaos.

Auf Wiedersehen.

i had good intentions

but the chips ahoy won.

day at the park

We spent the afternoon at the park. Sam loves going there. She’s quite the observer; chilled out and just taking it all in. I call her my Zen Baby. Ask me if I still call her that when she’s 2.

Here’s some pictures from our day…Sam loved the swings and apparently she likes it when The Accountant puts things on her head.

faking it

Today I spontaneously spewed out a long crazy post and then reread it. Um, yeah, soooooo not posting that. It was just a bit too personal or confessional, or cheesy, or something. But then I thought, why am I self-censoring yet again? This is my blog and I can put whatever I want here, right? And then another thought – but your blog is just so “out there” for all to see. Eh, sometimes this blogging/online presence thing is so conflicting for me. Anyway, I decided to do a lot bit of editing and so here we are, a toned down version without all the angsty soul-bearing…

I’m watching the French Open and really wanting to go back to Paris. NBC keeps taunting me with shots of the Champs-Elysees, the Eiffel Tower and charming sidewalk cafes. The combination of the urge to hop a plane to anywhere and the gorgeous weather makes me restless.

Er, ok, so that has nothing to do with this post. I just felt like saying it. Anyway. I think I might be a big faker.

For example, I’ve assumed the identity of grad student, writer, various careers, etc. Maybe its more about trying different things out but not settling on one. Does that make me a quitter? Indecisive? Quirky? Creative? Adventurous? Matter of opinion I suppose. On some level, I guess I’m also pretending to be a mother, or maybe I should say that its more of a “learning as I go” kind of thing. And this is one role that you can’t quit, nor do I want to. But this isn’t about motherhood.

I have a few friends that surround me with positive energy and encouraging words. I try to spend the most time with those people because they are the ones who will tell me to stop my bitching and “just do it”. You want to be  a writer? So write! Run marathons? Lace up your shoes and get out there! Get your graduate degree? Brush off the books! Change careers? Polish up the resume! Get started…do it…don’t just talk about what you want to do or be…go and get it. I love those people because even though I have spurts of inspirational thinking and motivation, it’s not something I’m consistenly good at. I guess this means that I also pretend to be a positive thinker.

But hey, fake it till ya make it right?

because i’m tired and ooky

this will be one of those bullet point posts that i know you love so much.

5k on memorial day was super fun. was nearly late b/c i overslept and got lost. made it to registration to get my chip and bib with about 10 minutes before the gun went off. sheesh. won’t do that again. sam did great once again and we walked it due to my knees. our 5k crew is growing. i had a great new walking partner and we had a good pace and conversation going, sis #1 and bug beat her previous time and sis’s #2 and #3 did their first 5k together and were totally awesome. hugs to all my racin’ buds.

speaking of the granny knees, i have an appointment tomorrow morning with a sports medicine doctor who can hopefully help me out. but we shall see.

went to dinner tonight with my dear cousin and her mom who i haven’t seen in ages and ages. she just graduated from high school last week. i remember when she was born for crying out loud. i feel so old. she has grown into a wonderful beautiful smart lovely young woman. she has a doc appt tomorrow and i’m praying it goes well for her.

i’m thinking of changing blog templates again. because i’m getting bored with this one.

i’m off work friday and am thinking i’ll go see that ben stiller night at the museum movie. by myself. because i’ve always wanted to do that. and then maybe a nap. by myself as well.

ugh. i have a headache and am going to bed.

shorts

I love Sesame Street. Even now. My favorite muppet is Grover. And Cookie Monster. I remember when nobody on Sesame Street would see Snuffleupagus except for Big Bird. This drove me batty! Frustrated the daylights outta me for real.

We had a nice rainy day cook out today with some family. Sam was asleep for most of it but Grandpa got her up and had her join the party after lunch. I am discovering that she has to sit and observe new people and case out the situation before she opens up and interacts much.

5K tomorrow morning. Knees are still being ornery. We’ll see what happens but I seriously doubt there will be much running involved. We are going to keep plodding through and either go to the doc, get new shoes or something. I must run dangit!

No work tomorrow. Woohoo! And no work for me Friday either so I’m pumped about a super short week. I’m thinking about going to the movies by myself Friday. Always wanted to do that but never have. And maybe some shopping…

Need to use up an itunes giftcard and update the tunage on the shuffle. For some reason I can’t seem to get around to doing this. Am thinking tonight…

I’m reading The Jane Austen Book Club for ahem, book club. Haven’t gotten too far into it yet. Another thing on my list for tonight. Snuggling under my quilt with a book. And some popcorn.

Ohhhh, Oscar is now super pissed because people keep saying “good morning” to him…this is good stuff people.

off

Disclaimer. This was written a few days ago but I have so many drafts saved I decided to finish it and post away. End disclaimer.

I’m feeling very “off” today for some reason. Out of kilter, out of sync, my aura is whacked, etc etc, blah blah blah. I can’t even explain it to where it would make sense. Obviously. Eh. Just one of those days I guess. I’m sort of trudging around here being all introspective, needy and whiney.  And not to mention my distraction issues today…bright shiny thing syndrome. I don’t like myself like this. Snap out of it!

It’s definitely not the weather, as it is beautifully perfect out there today. I managed to crawl out of my cave to walk across the street to pick up lunch and did not want to come back at all. Well, I resisted more so than usual anyway.

Zee knees…I’m bummed about my knees. Ever since I had Sam, every time I run, or try to, my knees give me mad amounts of pain and scream at me things like “hey, old lady, you are too old for this crap, knock it off, get a golf cart” and things of that nature. After the 5K last weekend I took a few days off to try and appease the knees (yuk yuk) but last night my first attempt to run since the race was the most pathetic thing you’ve ever seen. Even my dog was looking at me and wondering why I’d even bothered to go out at all. So I’m not sure what to do about that. Go to the doc? Try new shoes? Become an ex-runner who never even really got started good? Again with the “eh”. I signed up for another race for Memorial Day and it looks like I’ll be walking it. Which is more than fine, its just that I’d hoped to beat my time from last weekend. Eh.

Here’s the part where I get all introspective and weird so if you’re not into that please go check out the LOL Cats or some such. They are darn funny. And not introspective at all.

I used to have a clear cut sense of things but I have decided that things are not black and white. They are multiple shades of gray with some purple and yellow thrown in just for the sake of variety. Even though I used to be one of them, I don’t get those people who have a definitive answer for every situation or question. Taking no thought of the context of the situation or any outside conditions or extenuating circumstances. Maybe having an answer that is non-debatable and is written in stone for every situation makes life easier for those people to handle. Maybe it uncomplicates things for them and they can then steamroll their way onto the next thing.

Ohhhhh, bright shiny thing….end post…

love

As I have no words in my brain right now, I am stealing someone else’s.

I was catching up on my blog reading at lunch and found this over at ‘Coma’s.  Made me feel all squishy and stuff.

Go read it.

the highlights

day off with hubs monday. we bought a monster lawn mower. we ate lots of yummy but very bad for you food. we napped.

work is crazy. everyone wants everything before i leave for new orleans next week. people are crazy. ridiculous performance evaluation that i fill out on myself is due.

i am reading “the shack”. it is bizarre. i’m not sure i like it.

we grilled out with bro-in-law, his girlfriend and their chihuahua. chihuahua did not like big lab cooper, growled at him, chased him and ate his food. it was hilarious but i have a wussy dog.

sam had 9 mo doc appt today. all is good. however, she has an extremely large head.

i am tired. i am going to bed now. it is 8 o’clock.

goodnight.

Class of ‘94, redux

I guess this will be the post where I rehash anything publicly sharable from my weekend. And then wonder why I feel the need to do so on the internet. But anyway….

I gathered up the 20-30 bags of stuff needed to travel with a child and headed to the fam’s on Saturday. (By the way, why does it now take me 3 hours to get ready to go somewhere? This is why parents of young children stay home people, it is too much dang trouble to get out!) The plan was to visit a while with mom, dad and bro, and then head a few miles down the road for my high school shin-dig. The family visit was way too short but was great as always. Sam entertained and then fell asleep in the recliner with her Papa.

The impromptu class reunion was super fab. There were a couple of people that I really wanted to see who didn’t show up but the turn out overall was great and everyone had a wonderful time methinks. I will say that just as I suspected it might be, that it was a little bizarre. Only because there were more kids than adults and we were all a little older (ok, ok, so 15 years is a bit more than “a little older”) and a little wiser I think.  I was sitting at a table with my bff and she says “so who do you think has changed the most?”. I looked around the room and couldn’t really answer, I thought we were all pretty much the same, except for the extra 15 years and the offspring part. I asked her who she thought had changed the most and she said without hesitation, “you”. Ha! That cracked me up. I think it’s probably true. But that’s another post for another time. Sam was great and I handed her off to several people so I could go take a pic here, talk to someone there, etc. and she never whimpered. I should probably be a little worried that she’s perfectly happy to hang out with strangers but her easygoing ‘tude makes things much easier for mom. So sorry if you were stuck holding my kid against your will by the way. But thanks! My friends are all great babysitters! 

Sunday…Our 5K was derailed by illness and craptastic weather so not much to report on there. But we are set to make another attempt in a few weeks. I can’t wait to get out there tonight because its been over a week since I’ve been able to meander the streets of my ‘hood and try to keep up with Cooper. He is going to be uncontrollable tonight I’m sure so that person you see being dragged down the street by a 90 lb chocolate lab and screaming for him to stop…that will be me.

The End.

to tide you over

I have a nice long post drafted but I really must go to bed before I collapse onto the floor and scare the cat. But until then, here is my new favorite picture of Sam. If you look really close you can see her two bottom teeth poking through.

She loves bathtime, especially when I sing “Rubber Ducky, you’re the one…you make ma bathtime so much fun…” etc. And no, I’m not singing it for you. But it’s cute, trust me.