smiles
Posted by: Finn on: February 7, 2010
i have had/am having a great weekend. more later but i just wanted to tell you that.
whatever i want
Posted by: Finn on: February 4, 2010
I love Emily Dickinson. Love her. I was perusing some of her poems today and yep, I definitely love her. She was an intriquing little bird it seems. I like how she sort of shunned society. I wanna do that many days. Today being one of them. Anyway, I bet she was cool.
I’m nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there’s a pair of us — don’t tell!
They’d advertise — you know!How dreary to be somebody!
How public like a frog
To tell one’s name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!- Emily Dickinson
I have a headache today which I may have already mentioned as I am prone to repeating myself. The past few days have been more stressful than usual. Work stuff, home stuff, just stuff. And I’m holding it in, internalizing it or something (believe it or not), which is not good.
I’m not sleeping well or long enough. I just want to be left alone in a dark room and burrow under my covers in the most comfortable bed in the world (that would be mine). I’m saving that little fantasy for tomorrow. But today, I had to join the rest of the rats on the interstate and pretend to be a normal member of corporate society. However, I told a coworker that I was invisible for the day. I then donned my Potteresque invisibility cloak and willed no one to speak to me or see me. This plot was an epic failure. I’ll try it again tomorrow because I’m such a hopeful sort.
Somewhat related I guess is the fact that I’ve always been the restless kind and it seems I’m always fighting that tendency. I’m tired of fighting it. I just want to go with it. Wherever the wind blows, as the song says. I definitely shoulda been some sort of hobo. Or at least an Army brat. Is it boredom? Or just me being me? Am I just naturally the bored sort? Nice lot in life I seem to have drawn if that’s the case. Don’t get me wrong, I am fully aware that I have a great life, by society’s standards. And no, I’m not going to list my blessings here, I know what they are and I am grateful for them in my own way. But that’s not to say I don’t wish for more. Or maybe just for different. And if that’s a character flaw, so be it. I’m flawed.
I’ve definitely become a stronger personality as I’ve aged. More bitchy, if you will. I think that’s a good thing. Being the shy, delicate little flower of my youth…well, that kinda sucked. You get run over being that person. People take advantage and you feel like you can never say no. I’m done with that. And it feels good.
So I guess in many ways, I’m growing into myself. Or something. I don’t really know how to word what I mean. Some aspects of myself I like better than I used to and some I like less. I guess that means I’m breaking even. Except the problem is that I don’t want to break even. I want to come out ahead. Preferably in France.
I do believe this is called “navel gazing”. Heh. I kinda like it.
funny kid
Posted by: Finn on: February 4, 2010
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Sam is starting to do things to really crack me up. Perhaps I should go visit her now as I could use a good laugh.
For instance, tell me my kid doesn’t look like a crazy mad toddler scientist riding this horse?
And here she is trying to figure out what Daddy is doing. She is sitting in the booth at our favorite Mexican restaurant like a big girl huh? She loves this place too and will dance to the ahem, lively, music and flirt with the waiters. Just like mommy…hahah.
And now I’m off to see if anyone in CrazyLand has some Tylenol as I have the cliched “splitting headache”. Oy vey.
this needs a snazzy title
Posted by: Finn on: February 3, 2010
So, that post below where I was going to “turn off my light and enjoy the silence” for a bit? Yeah, I totally fell asleep. Yeah, I was totally late to work. Yeah, I am totally talking like a valley girl. Good thing I’d thought to set my alarm, just in case.
I’m in somewhat of a rather large dilemma with “the thing”…it could go one of two ways, it gets better because I’m out, or it gets worse because I’m still in but its now known that I want out…ugh…I just want this to work out…that’s all…plain and simple…
I am totally stalling right now. (Again with the “totally”. Word of the Day.) Sigh. I’m gonna go mooch some change off a very nice person and get some chocolate. Totally.
hallelujah, its hump day
Posted by: Finn on: February 3, 2010
Wednesday. That is a good thing. That means that tomorrow is my Friday. I think Friday will be a “sleep all day” kind of day. I deserve it.
I had a productive evening last night and finished up a project I’ve been working on for a friend’s business. Kind of a side thing I’ve got going on when the opportunity arises. It was a fun project (designing and writing copy for a brochure) and I’d love to do more of that kind of thing.
We will make another attempt at the Preds game on Saturday if there are no tornadoes, monsoons, blizzards or otherwise. Also, its SUPERBOWL weekend!!! I LOVE the Superbowl, no matter who’s playing. But for the record, I’m rooting for the Saints! Geaux Saints!!!! Who dat? Who dat? Who dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints? Who dat? Who dat? I mean really? This is fun stuff y’all.
I’m looking forward to bookclub on Saturday (not that I’ve read the book yet, but I will, really) and taking Sam and a little friend to a play area thingy afterwards. She’s never been to any of those things before but I think she’ll love it. I’ll let you know how it goes. I’m hoping mommy can play too actually.
Speaking of moms, my own dear sweet mom is coming up next weekend and I am so looking forward to some time with her. I’ll be taking advantage of some free babysitting from grandma and perhaps getting The Accountant to go on a little Valentine’s Day outing. Then mom and I will take in some culture in the from of the ballet at TPAC. Again, I’ll let you know how all that goes.
Anyway, I just wanted to check in and leave a bit of a more positive post in my little place on the internet. I just got back from the gym and am going to turn off my light and enjoy the darkness and silence of my house for a few minutes before getting ready for another day.
Peace and Love and all that jazz.
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too early for this stuff
Posted by: Finn on: February 2, 2010
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Up at 3:30 this morning to get to the gym by 4:00. I made it and could definitely tell that I hadn’t been there in about a week. But I was there and am back on track. The PMS week gets me every time so really, I only expect to do ok at this diet and exercise stuff 3/4 of the month. TMI? Heh, sorry. Oh, and the burger and fries I am already planning on having at Rotiers today does not count because I am admitting to it prior to eating it. Them’s da rulz. So sez I. Ugh, I am finding that I have emotional eating issues…am tracking this stuff in a journal and am more aware of it. Its amazing really. A constant battle. Sometimes I hate being a girl.
John Mayer concert in 8 days and counting! If you don’t hear from me after Feb 10th, I have run away with Johnny baby and will see ya when I see ya. You think I’m kidding? Next week I’ll only work 3 days because…just because. One day, my regular day off and the other day I’m taking against my vacation time. So there.
Oh, Uncle Sam can bite me. He is on my you-know-what list right now. As he is every year during tax season. Seriously dude, bite me. I thumb my nose at you.
I suppose I should get a shower before kiddo wakes up and demands my full attention. Mom, you can’t get here fast enough….
Everyone have a good day and don’t let The Man get ya down. Peace.
yeah yeah, more of the same
Posted by: Finn on: February 1, 2010
But I’ve really got nothin’ else but kiddo pictures right now…and ones I’ve already posted elsewhere to boot. But I can’t bring myself to blog about the “thing” for fear of jinxing it…
So until I come up with something better, here are a couple of pictures of a couple of potheads.
My kid looks quite annoyed at me doesn’t she? As I told the lovely Mae, I just use Sam for my own entertainment. And she simply tolerates me.
just a couple of pics
Posted by: Finn on: January 30, 2010
Getting into mischief…
Reading with Daddy…
in which i shake my fist at the universe…
Posted by: Finn on: January 29, 2010
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…and she laughs in my face, and then spits snow in it.
Today was just bizarre. Here was my plan…take kiddo to day care, come home, make quick grocery run, get ready and drive back to town for an interview, interview, knock their socks off and get an offer on the spot, do jubilant cartwheels down the hall and all the way to my car, pick up kiddo at day care, come home and continue the cartwheel par-tay.
But you know what Burns said (and Steinbeck lifted) about the best laid plans…
Yeah, I knew what the weather forecast called for. But really, how many times have there been false alarms and mass panic at the grocery store due to the tiniest threat of snow? I was hopeful that cutie-pie Dan the Weatherman from Channel 4 would be wrong yet again and/or that the Blizzard of 2010 would hold off until I was done with my mission.
I got punkin delivered safely to school, drove back home, got groceries and then got the call as I pulled into my driveway…they wanted to reschedule the interview for next week due to the weather that was just now hitting. I was calm, I was cool despite the fact that I had to drive back to the “city” anyway to pick up kiddo. (And yes, I realize that a normal person would have kept kiddo and just dropped them at daycare before the interview and picked them up afterwards, thus saving a trip. However, I am not a normal person and prefer to make things as difficult as possible. Ok, not really, but I’m just not one of those moms who finds multi-tasking with a toddler an easy thing. So I thought I’d make things easier on myself and take Sam to her beloved school. Figured she’d have more fun there than with crazy distracted mommy who would be doing ten things at once.) Oh well, these things happen and now I am set to wow ‘em on Monday instead. So there we go and here we are.
The rest of the day was pretty much perfect though. Sam was coloring with the other kids when I got there to pick her up and it was so dang cute. She was in a great mood the rest of the day, gave me many kisses and hugs, took a 4 hour nap which meant that I got about a 2 hour one, and we played and read a multitude of books until her bedtime.
The weather has put another dent in my weekend and there will be no attending the Predators game with bro and future sis-in-law tomorrow night. But we are just gonna shift our plans to next weekend and watch them take on the Sharks instead. By the way, if you want the tickets for tomorrow night, let me know and I’ll email them to you. Maybe you can ice skate to the game or something. Me, I’m not that talented.
We were also supposed to have a realtor come out and check out the house and give us the low-down on what we need to do to put it on the market. I haven’t heard but I’m guessing that’s off as well. I hope so as I didn’t do anything much in the way of cleaning or straightening up…
So, all this to say, flexibility is a good quality to have right?
Tomorrow will be spent in flannel jammies, watching Sesame Street and playing with kiddo. Maybe we’ll get adventuresome and play in the white stuff. Although, get this…Sam seems to be scared of the snow. Day care has an open courtyard that was covered in snow when I picked her up. I thought, “oh this will be cute, we’ll walk through it on the way to the car and maybe play a bit”. Ummmm, no. She wouldn’t set a foot in it. And when I picked her up and I was going to walk in it to show her it was harmless, she wigged out. Not a fan apparently. We had to walk all along the sidewalk to get to the car because she wanted nothing to do with the snow. Funny kid.
I leave you with this. Because Robert Frost is one of my favorites.
“Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening”
by Robert FrostWhose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sounds the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
predators tickets
Posted by: Finn on: January 29, 2010
i have 3 tickets to the game tomorrow night. comment if you’re interested. they are emailable from me to you.
((shakes fist and curses the “blizzard” of 2010))
one link per paragraph
Posted by: Finn on: January 27, 2010
the “ipad“???? really??? i’m way out of the loop b/c i just realized this is honest to goodness what apple is calling its new miracle gadget…the “ipad”…and now all i can think of is kotex…hey, apple marketing dept? call me.
i bought a few of these for lunch lately…they are yummy delish…spare me the speech about all the sodium and chemicals…i’ll take my chances.
preds game saturday night! i’m considering blue hair. ’cause i bought some of this and need an excuse to try it out.
i love these quotes about committees. they appeal to my snarky nature. and i’m about to go into a committee-type meeting. source: the quotations page
Committee – a group of men who individually can do nothing but as a group decide that nothing can be done. – Fred Allen
A committee is a cul-de-sac down which ideas are lured and then quietly strangled. – Sir Barnett Cocks
A committee can make a decision that is dumber than any of its members. – David Coblitz
If computers get too powerful, we can organize them into a committee — that will do them in. – Bradley’s Bromide
i may have stolen no less than four andes mints from the kitchen just now. mmmmmm, minty.
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Posted by: Finn on: January 27, 2010
if you are inclined to ask me for the password, i will happily give it to you. however, if you ask me for it and i say “sorry, nope”, you can safely assume that the post is about you. bwahahahahahahaha.
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kiddo pictures & a mommy moment
Posted by: Finn on: January 26, 2010
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Thought I would post some recent pictures of Sam. I know I know, I am ALWAYS posting pictures of her but this is my blog and this is my kid so I can do that. That’s what mommy’s DO!
I think you can click on them to enlarge…at least you can from where I’m sitting.
She’s becoming quite the big personality, quite the little person. Today she put her little face up to me to give me a kiss as I left her at daycare. I really did almost melt, as cheesy as that sounds. I have decided that I am not a baby person, that I am a toddler person. I loved her as a baby of course, but as she develops her own little ’tude, I love her even more now. I hope she’s not as shy as I was as a child and that she is not afraid to be who she wants to be, no matter what that is.
i’m thinking (take cover now)
Posted by: Finn on: January 25, 2010
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So I dunno if I like this new look or not but its different so we’re gonna roll wit it for now.
Today is…a day. I sit here as usual, struggling to stay awake. Struggling to sit in front of this screen and do that thing I do day in and day out. And it makes me sad. So I escape into my brain and I think.
I’m thinking of going somewhere, planning a trip to some place far away because I like to do that type of thing. And as John Mayer says, maybe I’ll “Plan a trip to Japan alone. Doesn’t matter if I even go.”
I’m thinking of getting out my journal and seeing what falls onto the paper. I did this last night and the results were shall we say, interesting. One day maybe I’ll share some exerpts here, censored and sanitized of course. Because that’s how this blog works.
I’m thinking of how I’d like to eliminate all the negative forces from my life, i.e., people who affect me negatively. But then, is that realistic? You hear people say that’s what they’re going to do all the time, but do they really follow through? How do you go up to someone and say “hey, I’m doing some purging and you are a negative influence on my life, get the hell out”?
I’m thinking of regrets I have, of insecurities, of fears. And how I know I’ll always have these yet it’s how I choose to deal with them that matters. How I choose to conquer them, not just live with them and have them always dangling from the edges of my thoughts and influencing everything that I do.
I’m thinking how sometimes I’d like to crawl back into bed and wallow under my covers and sleep for hours with no company but the silence. And how other times I want to be surrounded by throngs of people and wallow in the anonymity that a crowd can provide.
I’m thinking how now it’s time to open my door, clean up my lunchtime leftovers and sit here some more. Doing that thing I do day in and day out.
template stuff & a sam pic
Posted by: Finn on: January 25, 2010
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I’m thinking of changing my template again. I’m very partial to the current one but…you guessed it…I’m bored, need a change…oh well, in the meantime, here’s a picture of Sam being goofy.
In this particular instance she would get into this position, then turn her head to look at me and say “poop”, then resume position…I have no idea either…I think she just likes to say “poop” (psssst…she gets this from her father).
changes?
Posted by: Finn on: January 24, 2010
This weekend has been nice. Sam finally seems to be on the mend for a while at least. The antibiotics have had some gross side effects but I gave her the last dose today so that’s a good thing.
Its been an interesting week at work. Many because I am so close to seeing some major changes in the work thang that I’m antsy with anticipation and well, just plain ol’ HOPE. For the first time in a long time. So y’all cross your fingers for me and send me good vibes on getting out of a bad situation. And I hope I didn’t just jinx everything.
We had a tornado scare today but all seems to have passed now. Those things are freaky. What is up with the weather these days anyway? Earthquakes, floods, tornados, a Republican in MA….???? All kinds of craziness going on.
I’m going to the Predators game Saturday night with my brother and his fiance. Should be a great time. I usually make it to one or two games a year but this will be the first one for this season. I do love me some hockey though.
I really got nuthin much to report. Mainly because what I want to talk about I feel like I can’t right now. So I’ll keep my mouth shut and my mind open.
Have a great week all.
two very important things
Posted by: Finn on: January 19, 2010
1) I hate cheesy ringtones. To be more specific, I hate ringtones in general. This quirk of mine came to mind because some random person just walked in my office and his phone lets out an obnoxious and somehow techy-pervy ”BOW-CHICA-BOW-BOW”…I mean, really? And there’s nothing like doing your business in the ladies room when the chick’s phone in the stall next to you sings out “I WILL SURVIVE, AS LONG AS I KNOW HOW TO LOVE I KNOW I’LL STAY ALIVE”…and then she ANSWERS it!!!! Have you no dignity people??!!! This is when I flush the monstrously loud toilet on purpose…because she deserves that at least.
2) Know what cracks me up? Some of this Facebook stuff…the groups…the games…For instance, so-and-so joined the group “i-like-to-eat-twizzlers-and-roast-beef-at-the-same-time-group” or “my-mom-used-to-make-me-wear-sailor-collar-shirts-and-saddle-shoes-to-sunday-school-and-now-i’m-scarred-for-life-group”, or maybe so-and-so found a fluffy blue grumpy fairy creature on their farm that was lost and could you please help find her way back to lala land, or became a fan of “snuggling with stuffed cows at 3:12 pm every day” or “sniffing wet purple playdoh”…cracks me up…no offense to any of my FB friends…I love y’all for entertaining me.
Well now, typing this killed a good fifteen minutes of my life. And now I feel cleansed somehow. Mwah. Ciao.
ok, and again
Posted by: Finn on: January 19, 2010
very frustrating doctor appt with sam. waited over an hour after appointment time. sam was bored and cranky and pitched the classic stomach to the floor kicking and screaming tantrum. three times. the good news is that she’s better, just have to continue the meds until they’re gone.
so, onward.
hai
Posted by: Finn on: January 19, 2010
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what up world?
things might be calming down in some aspects in our household. sam is much much better, thank the lord and antibiotics. i take her back to the doctor in a couple of hours for a follow up but all seems well and she went back to day care yesterday with no problems other than buckets of snot and coughing her cute lil head off. normal stuff. ha. i have some new pics of the little booger i’ll post later maybe. ’cause i know that’s really why y’all visit me over here, to see cute kiddo pics. uh-huh, its ok, you can admit it.
other than that…oh yes, it’s officially tax season, as of yesterday. hug your accountant please, they work hard to keep you out of trouble with the irs this time of year and out of jail.
dani and i are back on track with our early morning (aka, the buttcrack of dawn) workouts. it feels so great to get the blood pumping in the am. that is, after i have dragged myself out of bed when all i really wanna do is snuggle under the warm blankets for another couple of hours. no pain, no gain. the scale however, seems to be stuck on one particular set of numbers. i set small goals for myself that i like to think are manageable and realistic. my current one is to get the dern scale to move out of a certain set of numbers and into a set that i haven’t seen in a very long time. and seriously, the 2 lbs i need to go away to achieve that are being complete and utter biotches about leaving. but i’ll get there. and perhaps it would help if i avoided all chocolate volcanoes at mexican restaurants and sonic drive ins as well. oy.
that about sums it up kids. y’all have fun out there.
this happened to me today & i was super bummed
Posted by: Finn on: January 15, 2010
know what i hate? when oatmeal raisin cookies fool me and i think they’re chocolate chip cookies and i buy them looking forward to a yummy snack only to discover the awful truth when i bite into a perfectly good grape that has been shriveled up and is all wrinkly and chewy and sticks in my teeth. that sucks.
just had to get that out.
in other news, poor sick baby sam is waking up about every hour crying. one of us goes in and holds her for a few minutes and she goes back to sleep. rinse and repeat. hubs and i are exhausted zombie-like creatures stumbling around with bleary eyes and furrowed brows. this too shall pass i know and there are worse things. much worse. it just hurts me that she hurts and i just want her to be well and happy. oh, and not hit me with wooden alphabet blocks. and lets be honest, it also hurts me that i just want to dream the impossible dream and sleep for three days straight but can’t. ha.
i would totally be in bed right now but my sheets are in the dryer and they are my favorite set so i don’t want to put any others on the bed. and so i sit here watching house hunters and picturing myself on that show searching for the perfect flat in paris and waiting for my sheets to dry. isn’t that a song? “waiting for my sheets to dry”? oh wait, no, it’s not. i just googled it and if you can’t find it on google, it doesn’t exist.
if you read this crap you must be really bored. g’night. sleep some for me.
the vicks thing
Posted by: Finn on: January 15, 2010
Oh, so I’ve gotten several questions about what in the world was I doing, where did I hear of such a thing, you are a crazy person…regarding putting Vicks Vapor Rub on Sam’s feet at night to help with the congestion/coughing.
I read about it once on a mommy message board but never tried it until last night. And you know what? It did seem to help. However, then she woke up with the nosebleed thing which I highly doubt had anything to do with rubbing slimy stinky stuff on her feet and then encasing them in footie jammies, but you just never know do you? Will I do it again? I dunno. Maybe I’ll try it on myself next time I need some congestion relief…
Anyway, google “vicks on feet” and you’ll find all kinds of controversy about whether it’s a hoax, a myth, crazy folk medicine or legit. Personally, I think it’s worth a shot when you’re desperate for your kid to get some relief and for both mommy and kiddo to get some sleep.
Carry on.
fun times with sick kiddo
Posted by: Finn on: January 15, 2010
this will be short.
kiddo sent home from daycare with temp on thursday. trip to er on friday night b/c of sudden nose bleeding. yeah, i saw blood all over my kid, i freaked, we went to the er. nothing life-threatening, just a nose bleed from whatever causes nosebleeds. back to doctor today with fever. now she has pneumonia. on meds. will not sleep or eat and is kinda pitiful. but still really cute so i think i’ll keep her.
sick again. go figure.
Posted by: Finn on: January 14, 2010
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I mean, its been a couple of weeks right? About time to be sick again. Daycare called me about 2:30 today. Sam had a 101.1 (that point 1 is very important, heh) fever, cough had worsened, not eating and very fussy. Poor kid is miserable but has her chipper moments still. She ate a bit of supper and I got her in her jammies. Early bedtime but she’s been up a couple of times already, coughing and crying. We’ve given Motrin, put Vicks on her feet (don’t lecture me about that please) and given her lots of tlc. She can’t go to daycare tomorrow with the fever but I wouldn’t take her there anyway. We have an appointment with the pediatrician in the morning so we’ll see what that brings. Probably, “its viral, nothing we can do, have fun waiting it out”.
Hubs and I aren’t feeling so hot either. But I’m choosing to ignore that and carry on. I will not acknowledge the germs and they will have to disappear because they will get bored. That’s what I’m saying anyway.
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